Sitting On the Idea of Meditating?

A dear friend and I were talking on the phone, recently.

About God, and about finding God.

She said something uber-profound to me, which changed my whole game, in terms of that whole sit-still-and-meditate thing.

I was talking about my new idea of finally starting a morning meditation ritual -- and she commented that I would probably love it, "because I'm so sensitive".

Well.

I took that to mean : that because I'm so sensitive, I would actually find my meditation time/quiet-time-with-God, as actually nurturing. Nurturing and nourishing. That I would benefit from it.

Which is profound!!

Because I have been resisting the concept of "sitting still", (because I'm hyper? Because I've been caught up in the fear-based ego-mind? Because I'm stubborn? Because I tend to prefer "activity" over "stillness"?) Yes, yes and yes.

So when I interpreted what she said as "I might actually LOVE IT, I might enjoy it"--that it would feel GOOD to me, rather than simply being one more chore added to my own internal chore wheel, my previous notions about having a dedicated meditation/prayer time ritual all melted away. And I started embracing the idea of sitting still, sitting quietly, as a way to feed myself. As a way to feed my soul.

And so I started sitting, quietly, in the morning upon waking, for just 5 minutes. I even set a timer, to help with the idea of being 'successful'.

And ya know what? I love it!

I feel so nurtured by those 5 minutes. I like the 5- minute idea, because I can manage that.

And even Marianne Williamson says that just 5 minutes each morning can cleanse us of yesterday's thinking, yesterday's limitations, and thereby free us to enter this new day with a fresh spirit and a clean mind.


Now (thanks to my dear friend putting such a different spin on it), I see it like getting an IV Injection of the Holy Spirit! As in,, of COURSE I would wanna sit in that chair, and drink in that "dose" of God. Of Godliness. And practice my (humble) beginnings, in this meditation practice.

So I'm working on it. And I feel much more stoked, much more excited by the idea of a daily meditation /prayer practice--- which I have never felt before.

Thanks to a good friend to say precisely the right words, to get me to see it completely differently.

Before, daily meditation and prayer felt like a chore; another "have to".

Now, it feels to me like, "Why WOULDN'T I want to do this? Get this injection and connection from God?!"

Now I'm hungry for this nourishment. And willing to sit still for it.